the haunting

all these time i must have been either too busy looking for love, too busy avoiding love or worse love is busy and avoiding me. the thought is heartbreaking but being the hopeful romantic that i am i just brush it aside and laugh my heart out.

but during lonely nights when your friends are out and you're home alone and and as you lie awake in your bed at the middle of the night you suddenly think about someone hugging you and pushing the right buttons makes me frustratrated. yeah i know all about those people who often tell me that love will just come and all i need to do is wait. but how long will i wait>?.. sleeping beauty waited for how many years for her prince,.. hey i am not implying that I'm sleeping beauty, i don't even have fairy gOdmothers.. (heehaw although i wish i had..)..

but what if u think u found the ONE,.. u were too shy and to be rejected. well the feelings might be mutual but what the hell you still feel shy to tell anyway. until one day u felt that because you were too shy that person left because u weren't as responsive as he had thought you might be. but you still remember the days when HE used to come by your house have dinner with you and the days and nights you were together would lead up to your very first kiss,the many months of flirting would end up lost in ancient history, to be forgotten...

or so i think 4 years later HE suddenly bumps into you (and its not likely anywhere, its at work baby!)..feels weird but the memories flash back and suddenly the weird feeling of love suddenly starts to enter your system and whammo!! hits you like a deer on headlights... u suddenly feel the urge to be a little more reserved than the usual, starting to act to be demure and keeping your cool and let him do the chasing..

hehehehe..
yes.. it happened i don't know what to do... i like him but suddenly it feels like love is finally haunting me..